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to those who actually care about me and actually read this blog whom I believe is most likely to be a very bored Wan Qing who randomly surfes blogs including mine and very unlikely, Gaille.

Moi has created a new blog, go search for it, blogspot this time, let me give you a hint, it starts with http://nicolelee-(insert something else here).blogspot.com, there, a good enough clue, and if you really are bothered, you will come and ask me what is the address if you are lazy to find which is insanely speaking, HIGHLY POSSIBLE.

BTW, Moi has left clues around the bottom of this post, start searching if you can be bothered to and well, good luck...

Righto, Nicole is becoming more and more emo.... Not a good thing honestly. Honestly speaking, it is probably because of the whole you two pple ( you noe who you are) are leaving and never coming back thingy. And it is all in my mind--- Let me give you a song to clarify...

Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can´t get you off my mind
Nobody knows ... I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can´t find
The courage to show ...
To letting you know ...
I´ve never felt so much love before
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out ...

CHORUS:
But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go ...


Night after night
I hear myself sayin´
Why can´t this feeling just fade away?
There´s no one like you ...
You speak to my heart...
It´s such a shame we´re worlds apart ...
I´m too shuy to ask ...
I´m too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I´m thinking aboutTaking the easy way out ...

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go ...

Once again I´m thinking about ....
Taking the easy way out ....

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go ...

Right, this song kindof represents my feelings now, esp. since i am doing this with you two are talking excitedly about the subject combos you want to do next year right beside me while I feel the word VJC being rubbed into the fresh wound again and again.
Anyway, I am going nuts, every song I hear makes me think of the separation and the whole I am going to lose you two thing and I am going to flounder around in Dunman with weirdo scary insanely pro-ded pple, namely, 2K.
And since every song makes me relate to the separation, I cry againi and again and again. Of course, this is only done at night or while I shower, when I am in private namely. Look, this whole thing is driving me nuts, I am never myself anymore. Actually wan qing, I was being emo not about the school, I was being emo about the separation. And great, you guys are talking excitedly about how wonderful the classrooms are in VJC, sofas, funky ables etc. AND i think we are going to stupid old dirty RJC. WHY???!!! I hate my life now.

Firstly, I would like to say that I am stressing over exams, even though I don't look like I am....
Secondly, the fact that exams are near means that the year is ending, AGAIN. It seems that this year went as quickly as all years do, but only because I am having so much fun.
After all the relationship changes, outbursts, setbacks, scoldings, outrages, scandals, I still want to say that really do love my class and the people for who they are, even though people have undergone major changes both in terms of attitude and behavior but still, I love them all.
One thing before I make another confession... Wilson, I know that you people think that it is weird that I am being so nice to him. I am here to clarify, there is no way I like him and I or rather most of us know who he really likes. I just feel that this year, I want to go out with a bang, I want to feel that I have done something useful. This might be because of joining CSC but still, I really want to show that I have been useful and that my 2 years in this class was not just all about fun and games. Right now, at this stage, I feel that even though fantastic results have not been produced, the current results are actually something I can be proud of. After all, how often do you see Nicole giving out money and counselling?!
The next thing before I figure I run out of time, at the end of the year, our class, my beloved 2Lerox will split up, we will be streamed into the different classes and my 2 best friends in the class are leaving. Now those 2 gals, Wan Qing and Gaille have been my constant source of entertainment and help. What would I do without Wan Qing?? I will never ever be able to call her at odd random times to ask for homework and chat after a nice long day.(Even though she claims that I am wasting her time...) Honestly speaking, I do not believe that you people have never thought about the separation, well for one thing, I definitely have. I can say that it has not been easy, after all, you people are going together and at least have someone you can count on over at VJC. As for me, you don't exactly expect me to turn to the guys or Jan do you??? And as for Mrs Koh, she will always be there for us but it is easier for me to talk to you two then to her. Now, I kindof keep these thoughts to myself, or rather, I think about it at night. I find that the only time I can do deep thinking or random thinking is at night just before I sleep. Anyway, inevitably, the thought of the separation has been creeping into my head every night and I cannot avoid thinking about it. And after thinking about it, I CRY. Seriously, I am a very strong person, considerably at the very least, and I my self know that I do not cry over most things. This is one thing I cry about when I realise that I will be without a confidante next year, without a friend to count on, nobody to laugh with, no one to ball with, no one to bitch with, just no one close enough to your standards. Anyway, I hope that after you two read this, you won't feel sad or anything, juz rmb to call me to talk next year and not refuse my invitations for outings, kks? This is not meant to make you guys feel guilty or anything. And I have one special request, well two actually,

How about buying me M&Ms and gaille, can you pls let me poke you a few more times...???=)))

Cool, initially thought that techno remixes of Lin Jun Jie's song would be damn weird. But turns out that it is quite okayish standard.

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They said you wouldn't make is so far uh uh
And ever since they said it, it's been hard
But nevermind the nights you had to cry
Cause you have never let it go inside
You worked real hard
And you know exactly what you want and need
So believe and you can never give up
You can reach your goals
Just talk to your soul and say…

(Chorus:)
I believe I can (I can)
I believe I will (I will)
I believe I know my dreams are real (know my dreams are real)
I believe I'll chant (Oh yea)
I believe I'll dance
I believe I'll grow real soon and (That's why)
That is what I do believe

Your goals are just a thing in your soul uh uh
And you know that your moves will let them show
You keep creating pictures in your mind
So just believe they will come true in time
It will be fine
Leave all of your cares and stress behind
Just let it go
Let the music flow inside
Forget all your pain
And just start to believe

(Chorus:)
I believe I can (I believe I can oh yea)
I believe I will
I believe I know my dreams are real (All of my dreams are real)
I believe I'll chant
I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and (ooo)
That is what I do believe
Whoa oa oa YEA…

(Music break)

Nevermind what people say
Hold your head high and turn away
With all our hopes and dreams
I will believe
Even though it seems it's not for me
I won't give up I'll keep it up
Look into the sky
I will achieve all my needs
I will always believe….OoOo

(Chorus 2x)
I believe I can
I believe I will (I can)
I believe I know my dreams are real (I got strength)
I believe I'll chant
I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and (watch me watch me watch me)
That is what I do believe (I do believe in me)

I believe I can
I believe I will (oh yea)
I believe I know my dreams are real
I believe I'll chant
I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and
That is what I do believe (I do believe! yayeeyay)


OK... enough of that song above, YES!!! I admit that it is cheesyish but still, it represent's what I think of our class! I BELIEVE that we will stay together forever and please don't blame me for posting these kind of weird staying together messages and no, to all my critics out there, I am not helping DHS to propagandise. Anyway, as to why you are absolutely unable to blame me,
1. BOB E RANDOM BOB STRIKES AGAIN!!! OK, this is not exactly random but still, because, I stand absolutely no hope of getting into VJC anymore and plus the fact that deep down I really luv u all( this so does not include JT, Bounce and the others...)
2. Because the year is supposed to end really quickly according to my sometimes reliable and sometimes not reliable source, somewhere OCT 4 and soon after that we will be split up and you galz will most likely go to VJC and probably we might juz lose touch and stuff like that. But there is no way I am juz gonna sit around and lose touch with u pple, I can't be left alone with the guyz rmb???!!! I would DIE!!! Plus, some weird geeky mainstream pple gonna come in-.-(shudders)
OK, so read through this and well, start thinking through what I have said, well, I am going to cherish you pple like never before next term so see you then and even sooner, lyk on monday!!! LOL

AARGH, here I m once again to declare that boys are insanely idiotic and bloody irritating, esp. younger brothers like Jerome, oh god, HIS name alone makes me angry.
Yesterday, at 5:30 pm, HE left the house to go to a party and my mom insisted that HE bring my phone along so that she could contact HIM. It was a barbeque at HIS friend's poolside. And less than half an hour later, HE calls to say that HE "slipped" into the pool and I was the one who answered the phone and HE was like - Oh rite, jie, your phone is definitely spoiled, and i went like, I am so going to kill you and HIS response to that was "yah lar, yah lar." brushing me off so casually. Bloody Hell!!!!
I really felt like going over there to murder HIM and humiliate HIM in front of HIS friends.
In the first place, that party was so not a party, only 4 pple turned up and it turns out that HE did not even know that girl so well.(HE went to some girl named jesslyn's house)
Secondly, HE lied to my mom that HE was going to be sent over there and turns out that they walked. This of course made my mom pissed. And of course, just made me even more angry then I already was.
HE should not even have gone to that party, and when we went over there to pick HIM up, HE took HIS own sweet time and even continued to play with HIS friend, Marcus.
Of course, HE claimed that HE did try to dry my phone, but hu on earth believes HIM???
I have important messages inside and I don't even noe for sure whether or not the SIM card is destroyed. Furthermore, Mrs Koh was supposed to contact me about something important. Now, that I am phoneless, how is she going to contact me? HE can go figure out.
On the bright side, this probably means that I will get a new phone, maybe my dad's spare Motorola V3 Razr, but in the meantime, I have to say that I absolutely positively will never forgive HIM!!!! I was even nice enough not to scold HIM, YET.......... One of these days, I will go over to HIM and give HIM one tight slap and some.

Anyway, besides the weird title, I am here to declare that I have actually done some serious thinking over the last few days and have decided to start on a whole new slate next term.
First of all, I want to apologise for certain things that I have done, namely
1. OM - Srry guys, I noe that I didn't exactly do my part seriously and all, and Gaille, srry that you got all the blame for the costumes and stuff, it honestly was not entirely your fault.
2. Okay, I can't exactly remember the project, but anyway, I would like top apologise to anyone who has ever felt upset that I did not do my part... :((
Secondly, I swear that I will no longer go around irritating you pple, especially Wan Qing and Gaille, srry for poking your guts out lyk 20 times a day, esp. Gaille...heehee
And of course, I am sure that you pple are entirely shocked by this change, well the reason is that I suddenly realise that I may lose all of u at the end of this year, and you guys are my beloved class mates and pals ad frens, so well, Leroxite glue as Gaille has aptly named it.
I figure that before I lose you pple, I might as well make a good and lasting impression.

So, just before you pple are flabbergasted at this, I have to add a CAUTION! sign-I definitely do not have that much self-control so pls forgive me if I go crazy once in a while, kks??
Thanks guys and galz, for giving me your support and friendship these past 2 years, and hope that even after we are separated, we will still be frens and hang out somedays, okays?!?
This song is for you guys-------------
And I, never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if, I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For/In good times and/in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

And then, for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my hearts
And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For/In good times and/in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for


You pple have been good frens, May Lerox live forever in your minds!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes,pple, i will allow you to rant and rave at these insanely idiotic guyz cos' it is also an excuse to let myself rant at them also.... so anyway, let yourself go and juz blow.....!!!!

guys are such bloody ass holes aren't they, look at what regan did, well my class was planning a class outing todae. regan, being the special projects coordinator(spc) was supposed to plan everything. for a while, things looked good, LAN first at 11 till wadever time one hour before the movie (regan would check the times) and then on to regan's house to swim. Now i also have a project- odyssey of the mind which is due on 31st march in front of the entire singapore at ACS (I) so we were kinda stressing over it. gaille, me, dh, justin, zhi ming and regan were in the group and we had decided to go buy our costumes on monday. in the end we didn't go as regan was sick and he was the group leader after all... so we planned to go at 11 on friday instead, which meant that we had to cancel the LAN. this plan was known only to me, gaille and REGAN. however, gaille posted the change on our class blog, looks like no one reads it anyhow. so everything is fine and dandy until thursday night, i call regan to ask wad time the movie is and along the course of the conversation, he tells me" i couldn't check the movie timings, cos' i couldn't find the website", i mean, wad the fucking hell lar, cannot find the website, that is one pathetic excuse. furthermore, regan asked me to go and play LAN on friday and i reminded him about our OM thingy, he said that "oh, the plaza sing thing, i m not planning to go anywhere there", in other words he meant to skip the OM. bloody hell ,as if LAN is more important than OM. i then called gaille and told her everything, she too, got very pissed at regan. to make things worse, dh had called me earlier to ask me to go for LAN, i told him about the OM thing. and he acted surprised-apparently regan was the one who okayed the LAN. so i told him that i would call back later, didn't want to hurt his feelings as in this case, dh was innocent, all regan's bloody fault. on friday morning, me and gaille met up to do our work cos' we decided to not do anywork for regan so we would put off the OM thing-all blame would be put on regan. while waiting for gaille, dh called me with a new tentative plan. so, we would go for LAN, play for a few hours then either skip going to regan's house or the movie, THEN IF THERE WAS ANY EXTRA TIME LEFT, THEN WE WOULD DO THE OM. dh was speaking as though the OM was so unimportant-the plan came from regan. but dh was in the wrong also, how could he be so indifferent to the OM project, he is a part of it also. BLOODY HELL!!!! wad in the wworld is wrong with these boys, they have no brains or emotions or conscience at all. AARGGGHHH!!! so now, we will wait patiently for mrs koh to come back to act as aunt agony.... sigh... more homework. good luck to you pple with your work and regan, go to hell and stay there!

Srry,pple been too busy to update my blog as gaille pointed out, btw, si hui-interesting haircut..... anyway, got too many activities and too much hw and teachers, esp. scary ones like Mrs Lee have asked me to remind the class about the holiday hw, for crying out loud, why me??? Mrs Lee actually smsed me to ask whether i had sent it out, aargggh. getting smses from teachers is not pleasant at all. HELP, why is everything so complicated????????????

We were treated like kindergardeners today mrs koh went through phonetics with us todae, like a=apple and it makes the sound- aaaaaaa very long long thingy sound pronounciation. so on and so forth. all for the DAS camp that is on saturday. THIS SATURDAY!!!! I m going to die, so dead.... only 2 days more, should i commit suicide????? maybe not, maybe i will, maybe not, maybe i will....

Calling all budding actors, hu would want to be a narrator in our play.
Requirements: Must be from Dunman High, preferably from sec 2 or above, must have clear loud voice. Thanks for your support.

AARGGHH!!! I dont noe how to put my science powerpoint, cos' i sent jan to do the animation and gaille to change the color thingy while i was updating it. so now i have one un-updated powerpoint with animation, one powerpoint with color, no animation and not updated and i have one powerpoint that is updated but has no color and animation! how to combine? pls help, desperate....

Can you name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head?
Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people.

Ready, Start!
1. Gaille
2. Wan Qing
3. Jerome
4. Si hui
5. Der Hui
6. Zhi Ming
7. Crystal
8. Douglas
9. Jan
10. Zachary
11. Wilson
12. Regan
13. Jin Tao
14. Qi Hang
15. Justin
16. Mikkel
17. Amy
18. Chad Michael Murray =))))))
19. Wei Lun =)
20. Wei Jun =)
21. Zhen Ting =)

Now answer the questions according to the names listed below;;

THE QUESTIONS:

how did you meet 14:
In Tao Nan GEP, he was a bit quiet at that time, he ate one OREO a day and then disappeared into the library until the end of recess

What would you do if you had never met 6?
I seriously would not mind, then I would not noe him for a decade!

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
No Way. My innocent little 7 year old cousin date Jan? No WAY, I absolutely put my foot down.

Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?
Si hui and Regan, are u kidding? Do you still need to ask????

Describe 8:
Very cute cousin of mine, i want to switch bros with my cousin so i will get Douglas instead of jerome

Do you think 13 is attractive?
WAD THE HELL! NO WAY! NO! NO! NO!

Tell me something humilating about 17.
That is for me to noe and for you to find out....

Do you know any of 4's family members?
Uhhh, not at all?

What's 21's favorite color?
Pink, my little baby cousin lurvs pink!

What would you say if 18 just confessed they liked you?
I seriously would not mind. I seriously dont mind. He is sooo uber HOT!!!!!!!

What language does 20 speak?
English and Chinese?

Who is 9 going out with?
No one, that i can think of that is.

What grade is 16 in?
Pre Nursery 2

When's the last time you talked to 13?
ummm, 2 minutes ago to chase him for homework?

Would you ever date 7?
No way, unless she stops being bitchy and stuff.

how long have you known 5?
2 years?

Would you ever makeout with 18?
Yes! if he wanted me to. YES!!!!

Is 11 single?
Yes, but he should not be for long, wad with jin tao around

What's 19's last name?
Gan!

Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 1?
Well, if she doesn't mind then yeah sure.

What school does 3 go to?
Tao Nan...

Where does 15 live?
Opposite Aljunied MRT station

Are number 7 & 8 best friends?
No... but they are siblings

Do you like 4?
Yeah, as a friend apart from the fact that she tries to kill me on a regular basis.

how do you feel about number 11?
He is idiotic but our only defence against Jin Tao

how did you meet 17??
Through Der Hui???

what's the coolest thing you've ever done with 19??
Go on a rollercoaster with him?

would you ever date 6?
NO WAy!!!!!! NO NO NO NO NO, that's it, i hate this quiz.

Who would 10 make the best couple with??
A female sloth?

If 2 was a crayon what color would they be?
YELLOW! BRIGHT HAPPY YELLOW! FOR THE NICE HAPPY LITTLE GIRLY SHE IS! WHEE!

who's hotter... 6 or 14??
erks. both about the same actually

what harry potter character is 16?
Ron, very cute!

If 5 were a model... who would they poster for?
Ummm, anger management classes?

Gaille, Jan, ME!!!, Wilson, Qi Hang, Jin Tao. pls dont make me repeat the fact that you have to do ur jian bao and zhou ji that happens to be due every monday. OK??? so 4 ur convenience, here's a quick guide. odd weeks- jian bao and even weeks- zhou ji. and if you do not hand up on time, you have to do one zhou ji and jian bao, basically doubling. and you pple pls study for our test next week? okies? thank you, and i shall retire 4ever more as chinese rep bcos you guys are giving me white hairs... ALL UR FAULTS!!!!!!!!!!! see lar, now i m old and ugly.

All my friends, pls help to e-mail me ur livejournal userIDs so i can add you to my friends list. Thanks!

AARGH!!! Stressed! got too many projects- Odyssey of the Mind, Innovation Progaramme, Service Learning, Computer Project, Science Projects... Wads more, i have sucky groups! For Odyssey of the Mind- Regan and Zachary who are writing sucky scripts, Gaille who is fantasising about the costumes, and well, i guess i m not doing much either but that doesn't count! as for the innovation programme, i have Jan and Zachary, well, Jan and Zachary are both sadistic in their ownn way, Jan actually came up to me once and said that she just thought of a fantastic way to kidnap someone for ransom. Wad The Fucking Hell?? Jan- Kidnap and Ransom? Somthing is severly wrong. My service Learning group is actually fine except for the fact that the project was supposed to be done by the end of Feb and we have not finished and we are not prepared and we are O So Dead.... My com project sux as we have DH- who keeps stressing about the project and gets pissed damn easily over this. I mean, he cried in com class today just because we were not getting anywhere. WTH? for my science project, my group is the non-UG group, apart from gaille, the only saving factor and myself of course.... i have Jin tao, Qi Hang, Jan and Zhi ming. My whole life SUCKS!!!!!

I m sorry people, cos' i did not do my part in the DAS project but i m so Fucking stressed at the moment. my mom confiscated my phone and grounded me and that is not the worst part! she fucking read my messages n scolded me juz bcos she found that i was smsing at midnight. So Wad if i was smsing at midnight, it has got nothing to do with her at all! And Si hui tells me to forget about the Theory exam that is on the 4 of March but if i Freaking fail my theory again, they are going to kick me back to grade 6 again. can you imagine the humiliation? And then wad the hell is going to happen to my MEP?